After what has been such a stressful week for me, I feel so liberated and relieved just knowing that it’s finally the weekend. I mean I’ve still got a busy week ahead of me, but being on a limited time where I can plan out my own schedule and just spend me time puts me at such ease.
Today was especially good for me, spending time with my friends Edith, Karen and MJ. Ate at Stacked, went to my mj’s house (thank god she lives close, we’re going swimming soon!), went to this picture place, ate yogurtland, and went to the little India village to get my friend’s eyebrows done. GOOD DAY!
I’m so tired of hearing my dad’s voice ramble on to my cousins about this money bullshit. It’s always the fucking money. I hate how he yells when he thinks he’s talking on the phone, and how my mom is just the same. This whole situation is annoying and I hate my parents’ decision of becoming landlords to my cousin.
Seriously, SERIOUSLY! Take this and embed it in your mind… NEVER DO BUSINESS WITH FRIENDS OR FAMILY!
I think he would have surpassed both Marlon and me. I think he really would have gone into the classics.
- Paul Newman on James Dean
(Source: jamesdeandaily)
Paul Leonard Newman aka Paul Newman| January 26, 1925 – September 26, 2008
A man can only be judged by his actions, and not by his good intentions or his beliefs.
I have been talking about how I am so mentally exhausted and blah blah blah, but I can’t even take it anymore, I have NO WILL POWER to move on with school and I just want to, not necessarily give up, but fast forward to the part in my life where I am stable in all aspects. During school I’ll be in my classes, looking attentive but it’s like I’m not learning anything and I’m just a blob of tired-ness. I wake up at 5:55 every morning but I don’t even know what I’m doing, I’m just doing it. I’ll go to school and come home and I don’t even remember what happened and I’m so lost right now. People will talk to me and I don’t even care, even my friends, but it’s not that I don’t care, because normally I would, but just now I don’t know, just everything passing me by. I’m so annoyed and frustrated, life is just going to fast and everyone is going somewhere but I’m going nowhere because everyday I feel like I do the same thing.
I don’t even know what I need. I feel really depressed but because that’s not who I am, I’ll cover it up when I’m in school or with people so I have no one to talk about this with, and even if I could it’s not like I could just discuss how I feel without sounding pathetic. Everything I’m doing, it’s just really familiar to me, and I have no expectations for nothing and I don’t care about anything right now, but I pretend to, and I’m just pretending a lot, which is the frustrating part. Since the year started I had all these plans but none of it is going anywhere, and I’m just losing my motivation to do anything. I’m getting depressed and fat and just really miserable.
