“You spend your whole life stuck in the labryinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”—Looking for Alaska, John Green (via quote-book)
In just a few hours I’ll be checking into the Palazzo hotel, Las Vegas. Oh the joys of joys.
I mean literally my family and I go to Vegas, minimum 5 times a year. And the bullshit talk about not being 21 yet, you’re too young, blah blah blah, I don’t really give a damn. Even when I’m old I swear to god I will not go to Vegas as a leisurely trip. It’s boring, it’s dreary. The Strip is full of rude, sex-crazed, obnoxious people.
I admit Vegas does have its perks: the free hotels that we get to have, the shopping, a few family members living in the north side, etc. But I guess that’s it. It’s so lively but it couldn’t be more bleak.
My intended majors are kinesiology and health science but seriously, I would love to be in a movie. Okay I hated drama (high school elective) with a passion, and maybe it’s because my teacher really didn’t teach anything about the art of theatre or drama, but I just love it so much. I mean every time I watch a movie I just think ‘holy shit I want to play an incredible role in a great movie like this one!’. And I’m not talking those indie films either, not that there’s anything wrong with them - they’re just not particularly my favorite genre, I mean those really big films.
Is that even possible? A career with something to do with kinesiology/ health science whilst being a famed actress? Ugh it kills me. I mean I really want to make it happen. You know during your senior year you think about ‘who will be a doctor, or a famous person?’ I want to be both, in this case a physical therapist and actress, and god I know it’s cheesy but I want to make it happen! And think how fucking great it would be to have my own really long wikipedia page with info I wouldn’t even know about myself.
(I know, I get really passionate and excited when I talk about my future:3 )
This Christmas, I felt like it was going to be going all down the drain because it just didn’t feel very Christmas-y and all. But shit I was so wrong! It was such a wonderful feeling and god I loved it.
Watched Sherlock Holmes 2…I mean seriously, Robert Downey Jr. couldn’t get any hotter. Plus his acting, and just the overall movie was such a trip and I live for movies like this. A+ job Guy Ritchie, damn good job. Afterwards my family and I got ready for the Christmas party. It was really “eh”, just everyone was in a bad mood and it kind of sucked. Then all of my cousins came and it was just great after that. There was so much good food, and I’m so incredibly full. The presents were amazing. My mom cried when she got her present from my sister, which was this really huge picture frame that fitted 11 photos, and it was just everything that represented my immediate family. My oldest sister, who was my secret santa including her hubs, got me this James Dean poster and I literally cried. I didn’t expect it one bit and it’s one of his best posters! I got my sister a pair of TOMS shoes and coupons (which were like her chores and “no bothering days” tickets….she LOVED them). It was just so tear-jerking. The vibes were so loving; all the little kids playing with each other, the adults laughing and talking, reminiscing and all that jazz, the old people being around each other, everyone else drinking and watching the basketball game. I love it all! I feel so blessed, and this just made the last moments of 2011 so much better.
Currently watching the Christmas episode of “the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air”…
Happy Holidays everyone! In t- 3 hours I’ll be off to church for the midnight mass. Let me be the 500th one to say this, but despite doing all the traditions my family does, it did not feel very holiday-ish this time around. I mean seriously this year went by so fast, I still feel like September was a few weeks ago. But seriously, it’s this time of the year where I get really really sentimental and I just cry all the fucking time because I miss my grandma. Mehh…
My family did the usual, went to Naples (which is this area in Seal Beach that has canals and every house decorates so it’s incredibly beautiful) but you know we just weren’t feeling it. Personally, it doesn’t feel like Christmas to me because I haven’t been to church in 3 weeks. But I’ll try to pull through.
Buying Christmas presents reminds me of how broke I am and how selfish I can be….hm. Last day of the school year. Last Christmas during high school.
Lately I have been getting really sentimental whenever a thought comes up about graduation or the near and fast-coming end of the year feelings. I like literally ball up inside and ugh, it kills me! High school was and is such an experience. God I fucking hate/love it.